This is just.. Ugh
I can’t find the words fit to build these castle walls where I have hidden a piece of me.
Stone and steel have no measure to the weight of guilt that rests like a crown on my head.
Ice fills my lungs, and now the fire within my chest is dying
surrounded by a sea of mankind but inside this hollowed shell I am alone
Days and nights become one constant, and dreams become my only escape
Life is surreal.
Where has the love gone?
My eyelids crinkle like the crushed page of a love letter and tears fall like black ink.
Seeds planted by your hands still blossom to this day and I can only look upon the flowers with sorrow
I am changed.
You introduced a kind of love that made my eyes opened to the world.
I feel, in the sense that my mind silenced and my heart spoke for me.
I’m still what you made me and I can never go back to how I was..
My soul called out for love and there you walked out of the darkness, burning like a thousand dying stars you were my beacon
In simple terms you were the light on the shore that guided my battered heart from the rocks that awaited.
You.. It was always meant to be you.
You feel deeply, in a way that nobody I had ever encountered feels.
You rearranged the neurons in my brain, I’ll never think the same, I’ll never /feel/ …. The same.
If I ever love another, though the thought is like the bitter taste of coffee black, she will know love that I could never have shown had I not met you.
The warmth of your existence in my life melted away the fears of death and banished the demons that haunted me
I breathed easy
Now all I breathe are cold winds.
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